Have you ever had one of those moments where all sorts of emotions collide? You are so happy and proud it hurts? A moment that feels like a revelation? Yesterday was one of those moments. This year, Addie's school started a Relay Recess, a fundraiser for Relay for Life, and a chance to educate the kids on cancer and how to help prevent some types. With a current teacher fighting, and winning, cancer at the school, the first graders put on a little performance of "The World is a Rainbow" dedicated to her.
This is where my moment comes in. During the performance, Addie was front and center, leading the class in the signs that accompanied the song. She had been practicing for the last 2 weeks and admitted to being nervous as we left for school that day. I sent her off, telling her she was going to do great and that I would see her later. Little did I know, that when I was watching her sign in front of the whole school, I was going to struggle to keep it together. She was amazing. Confident. A couple times she stumbled, forgetting what verse they were on, but she just smiled and picked right back up. At that moment I could see that she knew she could do this.
When we got the hearing loss diagnosis, we questioned what she would be able to do. How was it going to change her life? We adopted the mantra of anything is possible to a whole new level than we did before. I think, to be honest, we would say it, but we weren't always the most confident. The first 2 years of the diagnosis was answering a lot of questions and coming up with solutions, then discovering more questions. Speech appointments, hearing aids, and always talking about learning sign language. This school year we started. We made it a habit to watch "Signing Time" on Netflix and while I knew we had a lot more to learn, it felt like a good first step.
Yesterday proved that it was. I am sure it seems obvious. Parents always believe their children can do anything, and I feel that way with Addie. That performance was a moment where I saw that she could. I witnessed her ability in a whole new way. The energy of the event was very emotional for every parent volunteer, teacher, and staff there. I don't think my eyes would have been dry if the first graders didn't perform, but they did, and the overwhelming happiness and pride that I felt by watching Addie, MY ADDIE, share a part of her world with everybody, it really is indescribable.
I really didn't expect to feel this way, but I did, I still do. So now I am going to stock up on tissue, because I have a feeling this girl is going to make me a feel this way A LOT for the rest of my life.